December 2011
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I think I am going to start with this stuff againn
Yes
October 2011
1 post
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The way I am.
I wish I could meet someone who would love me and take me the way I am. 3 head over heels for this guy but he doesn’t feel the same,story of my life.
September 2011
67 posts
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Stopping is hard..
Had a relapse. :/ and now I don’t want to eat again
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Bulimia
Fuck you. Your supposed to make me happy but you have made my self image worse. I’m done. I’m going back to the old Shawn. I’m fat,kiss my fat ass. I don’t need to be skinny to find a fucking man,I need to have an A+ attitude. So fuck it. To lose weight I’m gonna eat right and work out like your supposes to do. I’m not going to let “herm” get in my...
h3aduphaird0wn asked: My parents found out about my sister the hard way, finding out the hard way is way more worse then coming out and admitting your problems, that's the first step to recovery. It's not easy, actually it's really hard, it's a life battle. But I'm the more accepting type of person, everyone has a problem whether they admit it and this is yours, go see a therapist/counseler. I...
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Moving sucks. Big black cock.
Big time.
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Anonymous asked: I've followed you for quite sometime now, although I'm on anon I just wanted to let you know that you're amazing. So why are you slowly killing yourself? What your doing isn't right, although I'm no bulimic my sister used to be. I've seen what my family has been through, and I seen how bad my sister was hurting. Whether you believe this or not, there is someone who...
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Skinny jeans
I remember when I had to fight to put them on,now without a belt they fall to the ground. Oh so much progress in a month.
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I'm moving :) And other things.
Finally i’m moving into a nicer place. I hate the place I live in now. I live in a trailer,big dealio. Its my first place and I thought it was a good idea at the time to live here. I was dead wrong. Bad a/c,bad floors,mold,ect. I’m moving into a newer remodeled trailer that’s only a mile away and its way nicer. I went two days without a binge and purge session but that...
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Weight issues,finding love,making friends and...
I am trying to sleep but I thought I would write a little something on here. Still single. Still jobless. But…i’m feeling better about myself. I’ve lost 3 more pounds the last couple days,That makes me happy,I put in 3 more job applications.I got the app on my phone so i’m going to start to post more throughout the day. I’m going to sell a couple of my things for gas...
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Tumblr
I really hate how my blog is about nothing but how I hate myself and weight loss. I hate disappointing my friends :/ I just so obsessed with losing weight. I never thought I would end up like this. I hate being alone. I am just hurting myself but I don’t seem to care. I wish I did. I am not so much losing weight to find someone I want to lose weight for me. And I don’t know what to do...
Anonymous asked: Shawn, you're an amazing person. You don't need someone else to be happy. You need to realize being thin won't make people love you. If that's all they want out of you, that makes them shallow, and you deserve so much better. Please, please think about yourself before anyone else.
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Going to sleep early and waking up with cravings.
I fell asleep about nine and woke up at like three craving Chef boyrdee. Ate the whole can,threw it all up,now I’m eating 50 cal yogurt. Yay yogurt :D
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Motherfuck
I would like to have a boyfriend,but,how can I love someone when I don’t even love myself. Idk. I havn’t eaten today. All ive done is drink water. I’m not gonna eat tomorrow either. Maybe if i’m thin I will love myself and maybe I can love someone elce.
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Just another day.
The things I did today.
:|=Whatever :\=Eh :]=Happy :D=Supper Happy :[=Sad :S=Mixed Feelings
Woke up :|
Weighed myself :] Lost 8 pounds total this week.
Went to my moms :D
Stopped along the road and took pics with mom and sister. I look like a whale :[
Wen’t shopping :|
Went home and worked out :]
Ate dinner with mom,sister and her boyfriend :S
Talked to the guy I really...
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Bored. Weight loss blog promo. Fist 25 to reblog...
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Must be a weight loss blog. Must reblog. No likes. Must be following:
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Fuck this feeling..
Reblog if you literally cant stop thinking of...
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-.-
I lost 8 pounds this week and I’m still depressed. Fuck you bipolar lows.
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Dreams
I have had the same dream since I was 8. I’m being chased by some demon and unless i get to someone close to me first they take me away and keep me in a dark room and have complete control over me. and when there done with me I wind up in the same spot again and nobody notices when I’m gone. This dream has haunted me for years to the point that at one point I thought it was real. Idk...
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I’m sill alive but I’m barely breathing.
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A guy.....I want. But its wrong.
I really need to stop thinking about a guy who has a boyfriend. Its just wrong. He tells me how beautiful I am,and me makes me feel wanted. But its just wrong. I just want to cry. Hes the only guys who has never screwed me over on anything. I wish I didn’t about him,I wish I didn’t want him,I wish i didn’t hate his boyfriend for having him. Fuck :/
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Well I was trying to go a whole day without throwing up. But then my friend gave me alot of candy :/ I wound up eating about 500 calories of it and i just threw it up. Throwing up melted chocolate is very difficult.
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To the prick face homophobes.
Your pathetic. Your opinion doesn’t matter to me. It just shows how ignorant you are when your calling me a faggot. Hell yeah i’m a faggot baby and there’s no denial there. I came out at 13 and I’ve always loved boys :) I don’t talk shit to you for being straight. Love is love and you cant stop it. So go ahead and make fun of me for being gay. Girls your just jealous...
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Fuck a duck
If I eat i know i’m going to feel guilty and just want to throw it up. I’m trying hard not to binge and purge because my throat hurts from last night :/ I’m just not going to eat if I feel like i’m going to throw it up.
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WatchI don’t know why I do the things I do.
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WatchMy sister Kali is a dork :)
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WatchMy beagle basset hound howling because she’s a boss
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Jersey shore.
I wonder if RAHN and SAMMI ane going to fight again. RAHN STAP ET RAHN! JUS STAP ET! YOUR NATHING RAHN YOUR NATHING! LEAV ME ALONE RAHN JUST LEAV.
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Fucking ass
Fuck I’m hungry. But i’m not going to eat because i’ll just throw it up :/
whataboutblowjobs asked: Awe thankss CC: I've learned that I have to live with it but I still get tons of shit for it.
ONLY REAL NIGGAS CAN REBLOG THIS.
Yes
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Another cold day :)
Love cold weather! Ahhhhh! love it :) Its the beesknees. I ate some today.but once 8 comes no more food. But lots of water :P And i’m going to try my hardest not to throw up my food anymore. Its going to be hard I know,but its for the best. If I feel like i’m going to get rid of it i wont eat it.
whataboutblowjobs asked: Awe. I was gonna get all excited because I'm a girl and my name happens to be Shawn. And I get made fun of all the time for it. Poo :C